Spinster mood

I think I act like a spinster now. Not that I want to be a spinster.

I always think if someone still not married at older age, that person will spontaneously have weird mood or weird personality.

Recently, I felt that I have grudge over everything. If I die now, I am sure I will become the ghost like in typical Korean horror movies, ghost with so much hatred. Can't even have peace even after dead.

At this moment, I hate all my friends. Usually I am quite tolerant with my friends' attitude. But now, I can find all small fault in my friends.

Yesterday was my first day to swimming pool. I have never been to a public swimming pool, since I was 5 years old. Basically I never try to learn how to swim, because I was scare of water, fear of drowning. My friend, CS, also my jogging friend, asked me to go to swimming with her. She is also a beginner in swimming, had been to few swimming lesson, but didn't finish the course because too busy. CS is a lady with strong character. Whenever she decided to do anything, she won't find any excuse to do it.

Another friend, Jh, always wanted to learn how to swim. So I informed Jh that we are going, meaning she can join us if she wants. I can't believe what she asked me next. She asked me, does she have to bring her swimming suit?! My volcano erupted at the moment I received her text message. Maybe she can ask me, "do we have to swim in water?" next time.

Then I ask her, why did she ask the question? She said she feel shy to wear a swimming suit. She just bought her swimming suit. What is the point of buying it, when she is not planning to wear it? She always said she have high self esteem, but.... I am so speechless now... Maybe she is trying to make me praise her good body, during persuasion session. I gave up!!

written by grudged Nomi

on 29 Jan 2010

Risk, challenge

Life is full of risk. No risk, no excitement, no satisfaction.

I usually play safe if there is no need to take a risk.

During my last trip to home, I was in Luanda International Airport, Angola. The queue for normal* check-in counter was super long, and the Q for gold card members/1st class was much shorter. So three of us decided to try our luck with the shorter Q, with our precious silver membership card. The risk of getting caught, be send back to the long Q and lose some face. The risk is nothing compare to wobbly leg for queuing for too long.

We waited patiently for our turn. I was the third person in the line. My first colleague barely get passed the guard. When he was asked for his gold card, he said he left it at home. He passed through the guard. Second colleague, when we was asked for his gold card, he said he only has silver. He was sent back to the long Q.

My turn now. "Gold card?" Turning on my round innocent eyes, saying, "I have silver card." Surprisingly, he let me proceed to the check-in counter. Special privilege for cute girls, I guess.

Another phase of life, another challenge, another risk is awaits for me. Hope everything is well and proceed well for me. Without this new phase, new challenge, new risk, my life may without meaning. Should I say, live without regret, love without regret.

written by Nomi

on 28 Jan 2010

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*normal -  economy class

My reason.

I have my reason not to blog a often as I did before.

The big reason is that I had joined Toastmaster (TM). TM is a club promoting public speaking.

It all began with the day I get award as the best Table topic presenter. Table topic is the session where participant will be given a title on the spot, and participant have to give a speech on the spot without much time for preparation. I get a ribbon as a reward.

Fyi, I was only a guest, not even a member of TM.

I thought I have a gift in public speaking, and my TM mum succeeded in converting me as TM member.

Now that I had joined TM. Had paid a big sum of money....

My bossy 'TM mum' had ordered me to present my first speech next week...

A proper speech is so different from writing a blog.

You can just type anything comes into your mind for a blog post. However a speech have to have proper structure, content, beginning and ending. So far, my speech draft has beginning and ending, but no content. Some help with mental block, I can't continue with the preparation.

For the sake of RM 250, I have to continue my survival in speeching world.....

Merely alive...

Bossy TM mum, have to stop nagging me about doing my homework....

written by Nomi

on 27 Jan 2010

Dirty linens on Facebook

Washing dirty linens at public...

Writing on Facebook wall about your relationship's complication is likened to washing your dirty linens in public.

Let everyone to see you dirty linen, dirts you have in your personal life. For gross description, it is like showing your bedsheet full of period blood for public to see.

Facebook is so influenced that some people use Facebook to show their hatred and to get revenge via Facebook.

One person was so childish that he deleted me, added me and then deleted me from his friends list. I laughed when I realised he deleted me again. It is not like I am going to die after he deleted me. Immature... Such person is one of those kind of people blacklisted my in friend's list. I should thank him for deleting me. Thanks!

When you are too lazy to announced your engagement to all your friends, you can just change your marital status to 'engaged' on Facebook. Within seconds, you will received wishes and greeting from friends and from unknown friends.

When you are too excited because you just have a boyfriend, you can also announced it via Facebook. Personally, I think it is a bad omen to change marital status on Facebook. Many couples broke up as fast as they changed their marital status. As if someone will start cursing your relationship, when they saw your new marital status. So better just keep it to yourself. Or you can blog about it.

This post sounds like a hate post.

written by Nomi

on 25 Jan 2010